Fingers curled at a desperate attempt to retain body heat within the sleeves of my light jacket, I trudged drearily around the darkened track. A breeze that carried the distinct scent of winter rustled my tousled hair while the leaves of autumn crunched beneath my pink sneakers.

My eyes could but make out the outline of trees in the darkness. A friendly cat criss-crossed in front of me like a little white leprechaun desperate for attention.

Thoughts were storming my mind, questions pervaded my soul, my heart was troubled and throbbed of emptiness. Decisions, responsibilities, and desires all clouded my vision. The way before me seemed so dark and slippery. I faltered in knowing where to put my next footprint in the path of life. “Why? What? How? Where? When?” I found myself asking God over and over. The silent fresh air, a distant howling of a coyote and a white cat rubbing against my leg was the only response. Life had been going so good, I had it figured out! But then suddenly the big events were over, tragedy occured, future goals disappeared, plans were disrupted and inspiration vanished away on the winds of change. And now here I stood on a dark, cold, lonely countryside wondering “What next?” My heart ached with doubts of the capabilities of God’s hand accomplishing anything in my life.

Making my way around the bend I inhaled the fresh air of the night. Turning my eyes heavenward, my breath caught in my throat as my heart welled with wonder. As far as the eye could see, and beyond, spread a dark sky covered in sparkling galaxies. The Big Dipper, the Little Dipper, the Milky Way, and all the other formations I don’t recognize studded the clear night sky. Millions and millions of stars glistening for all the world like diamond dust. There are no words to possibly describe the surreal beauty of such a clear moonless night.

As my eyes took in the splendor of the incredible view, the still voice of God reverberated against my heart.

If I can speak the word and the worlds come into order, don’t you think I can take care of you?

If I can hold the Universe in the Palm of My Hand, don’t you think I am capable of carrying you?

If I can thrust the stars into space and paint a night sky like the one you see, don’t you think I am proficient enough to weave together the tapestry of your life?

I am God. Am I not big enough for you?

It was as though He took an eraser and applied it to all the doubts in my mind. With every smudge wiped clean I collapsed into bed with peace in my heart and a renewed joy in the Lord. The stars glistened through my window, while a beam of love and assurance shone brighter than any star out of the recesses of my heart.

The night is never so dark when the beauty of Christ penetrates it.

“For He knows the way that I take. When He has tried me, I shall come forth as gold.”
Job 23:10

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